"I'm not scared of anything"
I wish my lie was true.
I don't want help,
"I don't need anything from you!"
I hate when I cry.
I hate when I'm scared.
My life is going by
I can't feel anything, anywhere.
I'm sad and depressed
I'm weak an abused.
I'm told I'm bad.
I just don't know what to do.
"I don't want your help"
But I don't want to cry.
"Leave me here"
"Just say good-bye!"
"So your gone....?"
"Good riddance" I say!
I guess I'm going to cry for
Just one more day
!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
See and Smile
Posted by December at 10:00 AM 0 comments
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Each night i put my head to my pillow. i try to tell myself that i'm strong because i've gone one more day without YOU
Posted by December at 6:24 AM 0 comments
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Friday, March 18, 2011
Swear
If you love somebody, Set her free...
If she comes back, she's yours,
If she doesn't, she never was....
i already set u free
but
if seem like u will never come back
so i change that stupid quotes
If you love somebody, Set her free ...
If she doesn't come back, continue to wait until she comes back ...
aw
so now
i just wait for u
waiting
waiting
and keep waiting
until u come back
because You mean everything to me.
Posted by December at 5:12 AM 0 comments
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
i trying
i say
nothing impossible in this world
but when i through it all alone
without any help from you
that must be impossible for me
Posted by December at 10:15 AM 0 comments
Sunday, March 6, 2011
tired
Just don't really know what I feel right now.
I'm REALLY depressed. Maybe I shouldn't be drinking tonight, I don't trust myself.
I don't want to go back to being that person that I used to be.
I'm so tired of trying.
I just want to sleep for eternity, go into an eternal void.
Or wake up and be someone else, waking up to see that this hell that I call a life was nothing but merely a bad dream.
I wish I could be truly happy, "normal".
So tired, so angry, so sad.
I really want to die, I can't believe I just wrote that, but it's how I truly feel.
Don't know what to do.
don't want to sleep, even though I am extremely tired right now.
Please don't let me let go...
Hold me ,
Tell me everything is okay,
Let me know you're here,
Tell me how strong I am...
Show me how disciplined I am.
I'm sick of being a nobody, not good enough to be a somebody.
I'm such a stupid puppet...
Good night to all, I'm just saying what's on my mind....drunk and depressed, good combination huh?
Thank you anyone who takes the time to read this nonsense.
Posted by December at 8:36 PM 0 comments
behind....
Am I kidding myself? Look at me...
Dark circle under my eyes, my lips pale
The fakest smile I have ever seen over me face
New tears run down my cheeks, my face paler than paper.
Who am I joking? Everyone can see that bruise on my eye
The red slits on my writs and the pain in my eyes.
I spend the day faking a smile and saying everything is fine
And telling everyone I love him
Can't anyone save me from this nightmare?
When someone askes if im fine, can't they see the horrible smile?
Can't they see the tears?
Can't they hear me when I turn around and say everything?
Can't they hear me screaming inside so loud?
Screaming that im living me nightmare?
So, everything i know is gone..
I give up and let go
I give up on my fake smile..
Posted by December at 7:20 AM 0 comments